© “May the Lord lead your hearts into a full understanding and expression of the love of God and the patient endurance that comes from Christ” – 2 Thessalonians 3:5
I begin looking through old blogs as I reflect on changes and elements of growth that have occurred recently. I notice a recurring pattern that leads me to a strong desire to get to the bottom of my need to continually exceed unattainable goals. I have been attempting for the past week to work on filling out my planner as I had not been able to when I was taking a three-week class and spending the remaining days of break catching up with friends. That brought me to Wednesday when I spent the day adjusting classes and making the necessary calls to do so. I then had Thursday to continue by dropping a class, check transfer requirements, organize past blogs, delete 500 photos (I take an obsessive amount of photos), and print out return labels for the books I did not need. Most of this occurred while looking after my puppy most of the afternoon with a quality hour nap that allowed me to get done all that I just mentioned! Mainly, this correlates with last week’s post when focusing in on the importance of balance and, therefore, rest. When you are regularly checking things off a to-do list, you become unable to think, you run on auto. When I had a few days to stop and reflect, I became emotionally overwhelmed as I began to process an abundant amount of thoughts that had been left on the backburner. I needed a few days of good rest, and I made the mistake of only giving myself one day in relation to 18 days of constant school work, friend gatherings, and moments of a dire need for organization. That being said, I went to the mall the next day and I was so happy with the thought that I was keeping myself occupied while also relaxing. However, that didn’t last long. I came home to look through social media, yet another distraction that I will speak of next week, watched a TV show and went to bed. That being said, today was the first day that I honestly felt as if I had time to write my set of blogs, calm myself down, and avoid social media for a while. I am definitely a work in progress, but I am starting to acknowledge the importance of REST. I know I had mentioned a long time ago that it was vital to relax but I am still going through my phases of uncertainty when I see the importance of making the most out of the time I am given.
That being said, I plan to put together a more manageable schedule and stay consistent. Having a planner is good but designating a day to update it will prove beneficial. I will be posting every Sunday, as I have been, and continue to have one post a month centering around my Attitude of Gratitude blog page. I hope to begin recording my food choices again and put in place a day for meal prep! Lastly, I want to stay engaged with checking my fellow bloggers throughout the week!
“More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.” – Romans 5:3-5
This anxiety that I am feeling will be used for the greater good of my purpose. I will channel this in order to allow myself the humbling pleasure of endurance. Through this, I will see growth and will continue fighting with the faith that God will get me through these moments. Essentially, I have acknowledged that this is an area that can promote growth within my heart and soul.
Any advice on how to make the most of blogging without letting it consume you?
I have been blessed to receive a countless amount of insight from T.R Noble who helped me set up a lot of different aspects of my blog and has provided ways to become more consistent!
© Kiki Mueller 2017