“ Life can only be understood backward, but it must be lived forwards.”
The time I spent at the beach enabled me to grow. I felt inclined to reflect upon this. Summer entailed a lot of stressful moments. There were a lot of bumps in the road as I attempted to figure out my path. I was so focused on planning things out that I became overwhelmed at the sight of uncertainty. This connects with the fact that I am a go big or go home person. I give my all in everything I do. This mentality generalizes to my life decisions. I set unobtainable goals which cause me to get carried away with all of my aspirations. In doing so, I become burdened.
I was forced to be with my thoughts. Two months ago, I posted “Take Time To Do What Makes Your Soul Happy.” That day I was so relieved to gain clarity by realizing I needed a break from school. As desperately as I wanted to plow through and begin my new classes, I was unable to because there was a roadblock. I had been told my transcript had to be conferred, within a set time frame, in order to gain the scholarship that was being offered. Because my classes started immediately after my class ended, I was told many different things about my ability to smoothly transfer. Because of this, I delayed my start date. In doing so, I spent these past few weeks realizing how engulfed I had become in my schooling and how neglectful I had been to my emotional well-being. The roadblock forced me into a mode of self-reflection that, ultimately, has brought me into this moment of readiness. As I begin my new chapter at an all online college, I am at ease.
The bible states the following:
Jesus replied: you do not know what I am doing, but later you will understand”
~ John 13:7
Each moment of confusion has a meaning. I am grateful for my ability to find clarity when reflecting on my life path.